誰にも言わない

誰にも言わない、いや、言えないような夜がある。周り道には色気がないって言うけど、本当か？回り道が色気になるんじゃないの？頭の上にはクエスチョンマーク。全ての答えが欲しい。Fuck. Why isn't life easy? Why  life is so complex? Why can't I say I like you or you are so pretty? Why I can't be honest? Why can't I become who I am? Fuck. Just love me without any reason. I wanna be your boyfriend. んーmaybe not. I wanna be your one friend. I don't give a shit to be one of your friends. Fuck. Who does understand me? Who can understand me? I don't care the answer of the question. Fuck. Nobody know me even I don't know who I am. Fuck. I just wanna say fuck. I just wanna disappoint my life. Fuck there is no clue to justify your feelings but it is the answer.